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| Subject | time time time (and a slice of life, pie) |
| DateCreated | 10/18/2007 11:01:00 PM |
| PostedDate | 10/18/2007 10:34:00 PM |
| Body | is it really telling us a story? well, sometimes... what can i say, i've been away (in case you didn't notice... note, that might have been a blatent please for attention and reassurance, but no worries, i don't quite feel seperate or even needy, just hoping, if ya know what i mean)... yeah, away, mostly away... except for filling my daily life whining blog with pathetic irreverence about messy roommates and being lonely and lazy and working too much and generally malaising around the house, i've not been on the web much... i did find my way back to meetup and am contemplating giving up even more sleep to venture out to one or more of these local gatherings... so there's hope for a social life offline yet if i finally actually catch up on my new job and stop working extra hours and don't sit down in the big green chair after work (i think it has drugs in it that seeps into the skin cuz it puts me right to sleep... good chair)... so mostly i've been working... me and my psychiatric hospital... since august i've been doing a few jobs at work as there's a transition going on and it's taken a while for the transition to actually happen because pasive resistance is strong, even amongst the staff at the asylum, ya know?... i've got "Candor, PI" on my office door now (who remembers Magnum?)... yeah, i've got all sorts of high falooting titles queezed on to my itty bitty business card, so i'm gonna impress somebody big time someday... yeah, sarcasm, you got it... the good news is i've got music in the office and slowly but surely i am putting my CDs on my computer (in between actually doing PI work and QA work and DA work and all the other high falooting big time impressive work)... speaking of computers, i've got a new old laptop (about 3 years old, but it runs rings around my old desktop which was built by the Bedrock Computer Quarry for Pebbles and Bam-Bam) and so I am exploring music more (which is a wonderful sign of life for me) and... and... and... ready?... i also picked up a Mac... yes, a Mac... it's a G4, not a new one, but it is a Mac and i am finally going to explore what the Mac world is all about... when i have time... and can stay awake... of course buying new toys is not helping the social life, but hey, i never claimed to be perfect, or even be able to walk a straight line... so what else is new?... there are lots of rhymes and rambles scribbled here and there that i could upload here to give future readers the impression that i've been uploaded entries every week or more, but this is all there'll be tonight... posterity can wait... fatigue wins again... just look at all the contractions, after all... i mean, how lazy, aye?... i've missed all the blogs i've missed... yeah, i meant what i said and i said what i mean... somehow i am finding a lot of statements coming out of me that leaves me wide-eyed... kind of like the aflac duck reacting to Yogi Berra... sleep deprivation does that... it probably drives most people around me crazy, but it amuses me and i like the people amused by me at times like these... in other words i've missed reading you (and hearing from you)... i shall be in Oklahoma on monday... a business trip... i'd appreciate recommendations for i wonder if i'll need warm clothing... well, that's life these days... lots of simple questions... little time for creative play like this (but then, i did that night, just didn't come here... i did mention i've been writing a lot of emo, didn't i?)... all in all, i've been wandering in circles (and not even running) and while some parts of me are getting bored or feeling stagnant, mostly I am amused at the monotony and futility of human life in our mondern civilized world (maybe i'm channeling Charlie Chaplin)... ah, the blessings of self-mockery... so anyway and all that, if you want to know me, give me a call... leave a message as i'll probably be in a meeting or asleep, but i do call back eventually... usually... sometimes... come to think of it, there's a call from far far away in my phone, but no message... if you're gonna call internationally, at least leave a message, ya know?... yeah, my number is still in my profile... and out there on meetup... and a lot of other places on the web... so it's not as if i am not open to connecting... just caught in a trap and can't get out b-cuz i love you too much baby... no wait, that's the song the guy was singing after the The Academy Is concert... good night at the House of Blues... Rilo Kiley was great on another night... so was Art in Manilla... and Dashboard Confessional too... and a bunch of others... ok, so i have been going to concerts (i suppose i am not the complete workaholic shut-in i thought i was)... you like concerts?... wanna go?... i think i've got extra tickets to Spill Canvas, Meg & Dia, Brand New, Say Anything, and a few other shows in November, in case you want to go... there's also the Deland Music Festival... also Rent next April, sixth row center or second row left... hmmmm, did i say i wasn't doing much?... what i am definitely not doing much of is sleeping and that's definitely effecting my thought process as blurriness and fogginess is definitely giving everything a slow motion feel in this head that contains the brain in which i find myself from time to time... and repetitiveness is increase too, definitely... kinda feels like nothing is getting accomplished because there's like no mental inventory being done... hey, so i'm vulnerable and sensitive and welcome to my world... if you are not at least partially amused, then we probably don't see things eye to eye... i hope you are happy with your perspective, whatever it may be... and if you happen to be in Oklahoma City on Monday, or Orlando any other time, for that matter give me a call... namaste, shalom, aloha, and nyuk... |