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...THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE... (I HOPE...) THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE...
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beauty is in the eye of the beholder attraction can not be completely explained the best we can do is be honest with ourselves and others and trust others to be honest with themselves and us intimacy is a personal as it gets in this life... for me, if you do not love yourself completely openly honestly and intensely as much and in every way possible, then I don't want to share intimacy personal energy or space with you... it encompasses much more than sexuality, but is most easily identified in physical terms so for simplicity and clarity let's start there... the bottom line is this simple... if I find you attractive I will let you know... I don't hold back my positive feelings... if I have not specifically told you that I am attracted to you, then I am not attracted to you... that means I want to be a platonic friend and do not want to share physical intimacy... please don't read into that it is as simple as it sounds I hope for the same honesty and openness from you... if I tell you I am attracted to you and you don't want me to be, just say so (please remember that I can not read your mind, even if it seems like I can sometimes if you do want me to) and I'll go no further (unless you don't mind my writing odes to your beauty... I might do that if I'm attracted enough... but in the physical world, I will leave you alone if you say you do not want my attention)... if you are interested, I'll start exploring a bit more of what I want and what attracts me on different levels (and that is what Libboland is about, though very briefly for now, but it is a start towards intimacy)... without knowledge, there is nothing it is no coincidence that this is last (or close) on my want list right now... I'm not looking for a relationship these days for a lot of reasons (feel free to ask for details in person if you have time for answers... please note I said in person), but I am alive... I may be mostly a looney toon childinside, but my heart, mind, and libido have been actively hungry for romantic adventures, creative endeavors and sexual stimulations since my first thoughts... and rethinking this in 2003, I am looking, though not fervently Libbo (libido) and has such specific criteria that I'm rarely attracted to or turned on by just physical sexuality... mentally I seem to have no off switch except pure physical exhaustion... and my heart is still living in fairy tales and dreams... so defining what is attractive to me is a challenge... overall, genuine intense honest love of self in every way is most attractive to me... please re-read this page several times before calling intensity is the key word... honest self-love is being healthy, active, and as fit as possible on every level (physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually)... if you're not exercising yourself to optimal potential and maximum intensity inside and outside, then you are not simply going to reach me or stimulate me intimately and I hope you can understand that so we can get past any fantasies that won't be mutual so we can (if we can) be real friends... at this moment, I am veging too much myself one of these days I'll put together representative examples of images and characteristics and stuff my heart and mind and body find most attractive for anyone interested... until then, just accept that I'm looking for friends and not any sort of romantic relationship (that's one reason I've not rushed out to take pictures for these webpages... I hope you understand)... . o O ( a bit of a pause ) O o . you know those representative examples I just mentioned in the previous paragraph?... well, I started making a list and as many things do in my madhouse (this mind I seem to inhabit), it's exploded into a whole new garden... or bunch of gardens, eventually... see, this page came before the BIOS index... so if you've come from the index, you already know... but if you've come from somewhere else, then you might be wondering why I didn't just delete or change the last paragraph instead of rambling on explaining like this... the answer, my friends, has something to do with changes... then, of course, I told you it was a madhouse up there above my shoulders J ok, did I mention that I am attracted to other inmates and silly toons who love babbling? (the mind can be a dangerous thing to waste)... well, Libbo isn't the only decision maker when it comes to who and what attracts me... that, too, would be wise to remember lucky thing too, or Libbo and I would certainly end up behind bars (anyone not laughing needs to loosen up... but wait, seriously... yes, seriously... just to show you that I am trying to be most serious on this page, I edited the first word of this particular paragraph upon seeing the typo that originally had an i where the u is now... lucky thing, huh?... if I have to explain that further, you are in the wrong place... did I mention Libbo can be blunt?... very blunt... if you did get it and still want to know more, then read on)... at your own risk, naturally still here?... ok, so now you can head over to the BIOS for more (you'll find Libbo has a garden to play in now (it's called Libboland and who knows what sort of amusement park my libido might create... remember, enter at your own risk et cetera... told you the mind can be a dangerous thing J [ - - - TOTAL SERIOUS MODE ON - - - ] PS... ok, as seriously as possible... eventually (it's still just beginning) the BIOS will provide the most intimate and personal literary respresentation of who I am in my heart and mind and soul and even libido... that is, the BIOS is where I will introduce myself as well as I can here on the web... [ - - - TOTAL SERIOUS MODE OFF - - - ] then it'll be up to you to figure out what's fiction and what's real J (only the bedbugs know for sure) J READ WRITE CALL MORE INTROS MORE BIOS or CLICK YOU BACK BUTTON TO RETURN TO THE PAGE YOU CAME FROM (or click on one of the links below) AND I HOPE ENJOY YOUR TIME HERE, THERE, AND EVERYWHERE J WANT LIST E-GROUPS WHAT'S NEW WORKLIFE KIT LIFETIMES JOURNALS HEARTBEATS FAREWELL Candor Communications ©1998, 1999, 2001, 2002, 2003 |